Tama's world

the love scale

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 02:47:30 GMT

[u]LOVE STEPS[/u]

1)strangers: you don't know the other person at all.

2)acquainted strangers: people who have met a few times but don't know much more about each other then their names.

3)sort of friends: a person you can hang out with for a class or a party but you know that if you will never ask them for a phone number or to come to your house.

4)friends: a person you can hold a conversation with and hang out with, or even bring to your house, you frequently tell them you love them, but your not sure you'd walk in front of traffic to save them.

5)best friends: you share secerts with them, you trust them with almost anything, you would take a bullet for them without thinking about it, you call them more then 3 times a week. you feel comfortable to cuddle them, kiss them, hug them, and get advice from them about most things.

6) more then friends/ crush: you already feel for them like a best friend, or you want to feel for them like that. your heartbeat speeds up when they talk to you or when you thing of them. you feel enthusiastic about touching them, but you feel so shy to. you don't know what to do or how to go about it. you shyly but confidently daydream about potential physical incounters. and the worse: they make you nervous and your weirded out because you like feeling nervous around them.

7)help! i think i "like" like you/ maybe its love: your heart races, you sweat, you're subconcous about how you look. they have entered your dreams, you think about them constantly. you'd die for them, you'd kill for them. you want to make memories with them, you can talk freely to them, you want to spend time with them. you want to touch them, cuddle them, kiss them, stroke them in intimate (non-sexual and sexual) ways. your comfortable talking and being around them. their obvious flaws are just kinks to you, to you they seem silly and small, and they make you smile when you think of them and the biggest symtom(sp?): when you're separete from them it feels like someone stabbed you in the heart with a rusty knife.

8)you're in love deep/ true soulmate love: you have all the symtoms of #7 but with the bonus of returned love and sexual completion. you would kill yourself if this person told you to, but you know they never would. your heart never hurts because you never have to be away from them for more them a day. this love is rare.

ATTENTION TEDRA AND DANI

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 00:13:21 GMT

I KNOW I SAID FOR MY BIRTHDAY THAT I WANTED YOU GUYS TO BRING MONEY FOR PRESENTS SO I COULD BUY AND IPOD... BUT WE ARE NOT DOING THAT ANYMORE. YOU MUST BUY ME REAL PRESENTS!

hopes for the weekend smashed

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 04:13:32 GMT

Period + Me + Animethon = EXTREME FUCKING ANGER!!!

i'm in a bad mood! not only is it fricking hot outside as well as in! i have my damn period! screw the world!

AND FUCK NORMAL WOMANLY BODY FUNCTIONS!

Pride parade! part 2

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 22:31:05 GMT

So as i was saying yesterday... Benny came rocket lanching out at me in a huge tackle glomp.
Then we were hugging and Sam came out and picked me up and carried me into the center of the parade and said something like "you much march for YUY or you will bring shame to us all." So i waved bye/ shrugging to my dad who just gave me a look like: go ahead march its just two more blocks. so i did. Jordan was there which was cool cuz he told everyone that he was going to be out of town for this. and then i comenced with the hugging of everyone.

Once we got to the fair grounds terry wanted to go swim in the fountain so we all ran across the street to swim. I didn't want to swim cuz i just wasn't wearing the right clothes. but while i was screaming that they were crazy and waiting for them to come out, guess who i saw? MS. RAMSEY!!! my 8th grade english/ science/ french/ computers teacher!!! omg she left in grade 9 cuz she got a job at the UofA. My mom told me that she was a lesbo cuz her best friend used to work at the same school as ms ramsey so i wasn't suprised that she was there. but my friends like tedra wouldn't believe me. but this is like big proof!

So anyway then everyone gets out of the pool and i'm like "ahhh terry, don't you dare" and i run but terry glomps me with his wet body. and then i was wet and then i was complaining to benny but then she glomps me with her wet body and then i was more wet. (please ignore all puns, they are not intended)

So then benny pulls out a smoke and i was really supprised that she smokes and i was like "no you can't be wet and smoke, its like two evils" but after i learned that jade smokes and my brother, now benny, i've come to realize that you can't make someone quit unless they want to themselves. Too bad too cuz i wanted to have a crush on benny, now the uglyness of cigerettes makes her lose her apeal and bumps her down to friend mode once more.

I'm always checking out the girls at youth group though, it brings a higher posibility for returned love. weird, i know but it makes life easier to fall for people have more things in common with you.

Anywho, after that i went to the YUY booth to find Jade. we decied to walk around for a while, but then jade's shoes were hurting his feet so we sat down for a bit and admired some drag qweens dresses. lots of sequins, it was very flashy.

Then we looked at some booths and got pamflets and stuff. i only had ten bucks to spend so i needed to decied carefully what to buy. Then benny draged me off to find an atm machine so she could buy stuff. then just as we got to the atm machine she reallized she forgot her bank card. so then i went and bought her a silicone braclet. they were two for five bucks. so it was a steal. even if she smokes i can't help thinking she's cute.

So then i was hanging out with jade again and i told him that his lipstick was wearing off so we went to the bathroom to aply more, but right about when we were going to the girls bathroom and i was wondering weither jade was going to come in the bathroom with me, we see a line and without any restraint jade says "we can't have you waiting in a line!" and pulls me into the guys bathroom!

SO I WAS IN THE GUYS BATHROOM! and some guy mutters "wow she must me really gay". so i'm trying to keep my eyes on jade and my own reflection in the mirror insted of on the guys in the bathroom. and the funniest thing was, when i later went to the girls bathroom by myself i noticed that while the guys bathroom was really clean... the girls bathroom look like a tornado hit it. like vomiting toilets! lol

Also i got a temp tattoo but it was later in the day and i made the mistake of thinking that i could stick it on with the condenstation off my sprite can. so when it din't work i asked terry to hold his tongue on it for a while till it worked. gross! unhigenic! but oh well. i reallized after of course that i could of just gone to the washroom to stick it on...

after the fair we walked to the center and watched "But im a cheerleader" excilent movie by the way. then we went to second cup for coffe.

all in all a great day!!! :)

Pride parade!

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 04:49:00 GMT

My first PRIDE was FUCKING PERFECT! almost... lets start from the begining shall we.
Orginally we were going to Calgary. Me, my mom, and my dad. But then my dad was like, "you can go to the pride fair then we'll go to calgary". The next week he said, "The hockey game is on saterday, i don't want to watch it in some hotel in calgary".

So then he was taking me to the parade and he was like "i don't want you to walk in the parade, you know what we talked about before..." so i said i wouldn't.

so we were on the pride route waiting for them to come by. and i was like "woah they must be moving like snails cuz it shouldn't talk this long to come from 108th to 101 street!" Then their coming and i'm like "woot". and then out of no where Benny comes running out and glomps me and super speed.

...ugh tired i'll tell you more tommorow...

omg gravi

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 21:15:31 GMT

this is hilarious read!
http://fiction.gurabiteshiyon.net/story.php?no=672&PHPSESSID=9e63280fc70c993cdb25953ffdb17175

YUY Rocks

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 17:41:00 GMT

Omg you guys! Time for an update.Sami got a girlfriend... but i'm not ubset! :) I've set my sights on someone new! Robin, beautiful Robin! she was single, i was single, we were feeling left out! so i asked her if she wanted to date me and she said yes! And no this is not rebounding, i genulinly like Robin!

in other news! I when to the gay pride center of edmonton. robin invited me. cute terry was there too. This youth group is amazing, i had so much fun! it was perfect! stephy A was there too, so i finally got to see her again.

loves!
steph

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 04:01:00 GMT

Have you guys seen the new dairy queen comersial (sp?) its so funny! it has a dude in labor and he's screaming and suffering. and its the pregnant wife daydreaming about it.

10 Reasons Why Gay Marriage is Wrong (Stolen from fabiale)

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 17:36:16 GMT

Dude's this is hilirous! read it!

Taken from fabiale's livejournal

10 Reasons Why Gay Marriage is Wrong.

1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.

2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behaviour. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britney Spears's 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

Repost this in your journal if you are for gay marriage and leave a comment if you wish.

Guess who's back... back again... Tama's back... tell your friends

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 15:07:04 GMT

La li ho. i'm back and i brought matches *throughs out match books the crowd* my mom says i don't have a tan, so i'm sad. but i read this ausome book *holds up book* its called "The Old Man and the Sea" by Earnest Heminway. Read it i comand you!!! anywho i'm happy because all good fanfics on ff.net have been updated. and the author of the "gifts" series has wrote a new story.
love you all,
tama

Viva Me-Hi-Co

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 21:26:55 GMT

Hey everyone,
i´m still a little nautious (sp?) from the boat ride last night. we came from mazatlan across the gulf of california to Le Paz which is in Baya. i´m still amazed how much spanish is like french. which makes sense because spain and france are in the same general location. LePaz is wonderful, people are so polite and nice here, this city is soooo clean, no litter. these girls just came up to me and told me i was beautiful, that is allways nice. too bad i can´t speak spanish. they have a ausome fabric store here i want every thing in it. talk to me you guys.

Mexico woot

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 19:16:09 GMT

so i´m in mexico. and to summarize...
-sunburn on back and face (everyone here knows that whoever has the worst sun burn must be canadian)
-its warm here
-i´m bring back matchbooks as souviners
-boat trip this after noon
um... dudes my mind has gone blank...
i´m just chilling, we´re not doing much.
i´ll see you all on monday.
oh and Dani i tried to email you but it go sent back.
talk to you latter

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 19:19:41 GMT

Well i'm sure you all have noticed that i haven't updated in like a month... so lets update.
i kissed i guy... ben... he asked me to make out with him and i didn't, its not going to get past that because although he is a sexy beast i don't like his personality.

i haven't been watching tv as much any more, too many re-runs.

as you might be able to tell, i have noticed i've become less articulet. i blame this completely on my raging hormones of course. if i wasn't so damn horny all the time then maybe i wouldn't read all this fanfiction. so i'm going to try and read more books, maybe i'll regain what i once had.

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 00:13:31 GMT

So everything is pretty good... Today was interesting I brought my Kumagoro hat to school today to show my friends (my new friends who haven't seen it yet. As soon as I showed it to Terry he grabbed it and ran, i had to chase him half around the school for it then I turned to yell for help from Sami and he snuck up next to me licked me! His spit smelled like peach candies! And if your thinking how the hell could I smell it? Because he licked me from my jaw to the tip of my nose. In japanese class we were having "culture friday" so we were celibrating the shinto custom of throughing beans at the oni to bring good fortune... or something like that. i had a turn at being the oni and pam really pelted me... so did tedra, but tedra had a reason... I was making fun of her chest size again, she punished me really hard this time. With the bean throughing then hitting me and then kicking me in the shins... it must make her feel terible when i say these things, playing her insecurities or something, I know that I hate it when people call me loud or slow or ugly. Its had when i'm in a playful mood to you know... poke you in the side. So tedra if your reading then i'm very sorry you have very sexy breasts. Any who, I went home around the middle of second period cause my cramps were acting up, my teacher didn't want me to go over to tedra's class to get her pain killers, said that we can't swap drugs without parent aproval. It was probable for the best anyway because I've learned from expeariance that medicating with an empty stomach can make you vomit. The cramps cleared abit by the time i walked to the office but i had already called my dad to pick me up so i wasn't about to tell him when he got there that i was fine and i would just go back to school and send him off. that would have pissed him off so i just acted like i usually do and stayed home watching tv.

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 03:24:48 GMT

So I went to see broke back mountain... i cried... whenever i see a depressing movie i become strangly pensive. Which brings the question i ask my self WAY too often: "Does love live outside the movies".

I ask other questions too like "do we simply belive things because we've just being beliving them for a long time?" for instance... Do i really like yoai? or have i just liked it for so long that i just still think its hot, or maybe i'm just a hopeless romanitic that will read any kind of romance as long as the words "i love you" are in it, or maybe i'm afraid of being a lesbian that i have to hold onto the last little bit of heterosexuality that i have and thats why i'm bisexual. Do i still love my ex-girlfriend or is she once again just my best friend... Should I have dumped my boy-friend when he is the only person i can think of who ever had the hots for me... Do i still think of my best friend as my best friend or is she just the only person avalible who gives me a damn.

I read and watch stories about waiting for the moment whhen your eyes find someone across the room and their eyes are finding you too, but i really wonder if it happens, i gues people wouldn't write about it if it didn't happen.

I hope i'm not offending anyone by writing this... if so i'm sorry. My mom and dad called me fat yesterday... They were looking at houses out by saint paul... i hope their not serious about moing there.

Hiriji's trill

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 22:33:59 GMT

Fandom: Yami no Matsuei
Characters: Hiriji, Hisoka, Tsuzuki, OC
Pairings: Hijiri/OC, Hisoka/Tsuzuki

Part 1

Hirji was feeling so restless right now, the concert had ended and everyone had gone home. The shimigami that had one acompagined him had left and he felt his confidece shatter once again, he was alone. No Tsuzuki, no Hisoka, no Kazusa, His father's violin burned to ash, that demonic violin that had inflamed his soul was gone. everything had shattered. He felt like a drug addict going through withdrawls. There was nothing left to depend on.

He reached his apartment and opened the door, it all felt so empty. His legs finally giving out he hunched on the floor sobbing.

Sammy is hot

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 20:58:08 GMT

so exam week has begun and now i have no chance of getting that yoai manga from Terry now... i have a test on friday and my math test on monday... on tuesday i was hanging out with Sammy at lunch and she was boncing around like she allways does. She has so much energy, its ausome. Sammy is an enigma (sp?) to me... she's so cute but at the same time she is so sexual. I was watching her and she was wispering to some girl and the girls face was getting redder and redder.

I think Sammy lives and breaths flirting. I'm very playful and I like to embelish things, I wanted Sammy to come over and hug me some more (she is just so cushiony with huge breasts, they make for really good hugging) so I said "Hey Sam I want some loving, too" and she came on to me that lusty voice asking if i wanted to be seme or uke! I'm not really sure if i'd want to date her or something but, man, if she asked me if i wanted a lay I'd probably jump at the chance.

Maybe I'm just extra horny this month.... oh well, I'm going to go to Dani's house next friday, after her tests are done... she has like 4 or 5 tests... it sounds like hell... If Sammy was my new favorite person then Dani has to be my #1 favorite person ever!!! I like to hug Dani too! Someone help me, i'm getting a fettish for 5' 5", Double Ds... *snickers*

I think its great when you have friends who you fun with, that love the things you do, and you feel comfortable cuddling. If you can't touch, love, or support your friends the most important people in your life. Then how will you ever learn to love anougher? I belive its your friends that teach you to love. so thanks everyone.

Its so unfair

Sat, 14 Jan 2006 00:26:48 GMT

So i'm going to go see "rent" for the second time with Ted, Steph, and Dani. It should be fun. Omg Terry (my gay none-sexual crush) stole my yoai manga today, Sammy was going to lend them to me then he took them! the bastard, I want to yell at him but he is soooo cute I don't know how...

confusion is my life

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 15:40:57 GMT

So my mom is working out of town again like she was doing a few years ago, I was so sure that when she got the job in town she would be happy with it no matter what it paid or how much the staff bothered her, but now she is back at a low paying job where she is away all week and only comes back on the week end. Last time she did this she was allays so restrictive of where I when on the weekend because she wanted me to spend time with her but i don't see Dani or some of my other friends every day... I love Dani and i'm not goning to let my time with her go down the drain just because my mom (someone who doesn't understand me or like any of the same things as me) hang over me like a parasite.

Some how I feel like my parents are devorced, I can't relate to them much right now so I'd rather let them hang out with each other, I would rather know that they love each other then love me.

new year resolutions

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 20:44:51 GMT

This year I really think I can keep my resolutions:
- do homework to best ability
- do fun but productive crafts to keep me away from the demon know as my computer
- do yoga every morning
- go to sleep earlier
- Play violin every day
- go out with friends more
-more dedication to writing fanfics and drawing

I really think that this will be the year for me to do this. And i'm so happy! Dani was just over... she is so perfect. I really don't know why i write in this way one here about here, since i know your the only one who reads this, dani...

I love "Ai no Kusaubi"

happiness...

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 04:43:46 GMT

I'm much happier now. Its amazing how pain-killers and ice-cream will lighten the heart... and groin. I'm watching "Faris Bueller day off" I love that movie and whenever I watch it i wonder why I don't own it on Dvd?! Anyway about ice-cream i should really buy more ice cream for when dani comes over. when i talk about ice cream she allways gets pissed and talks about how she never has ice cream.

hey Dani whats your favorite ice cream?

grrr parents

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 23:33:25 GMT

So I finaly finished cleaning my room and I found the glue gun so i could fix the headless buhdda (sp?) and then my dad told me that i couldn't keep the altar there because the curtains/carpet will light on fire. the altar is high enough off the ground that it won't do that and low and to the side enough the curtains won't catch on fire. what kind of reckless person does he think i am? I don't leave the presence of candles ever. Any good pyro knows how not to start a fire.

Tommorow Dani is coming over and i'm not very happy... I love that she is coming over but I have my period and it's going to be the 3RD DAMN DAY. I like to spend time with Dani, hell i love Dani, but i hate my body and my damn period... I just wonder if my life would be better if i was a guy...

Oh well if Dani's there then I things will be happy anyway. Even if i'm bleeding Dani should cheer me up and chances are she'll be having it too.

I LOVE YOU DANI!!!!!!!!!

come to think of it...

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 23:30:54 GMT

In cardcaptor sakura volume 2 they say that yukito's b-day is on December 25 but in this story secuence they is no snow, i know my geomitry and where ever they are they should be pretty close to tokyo and it should snow in tokyo around christmas. I'm really beginning to hate the japanese school system they have like a month and a half off for summer they go to school on saturday and now they don't have winter break? The price of being smart seems abit much, no wonder everyone commits suicide. our western civalisation is conpletely based on the cristien/whatever faith and thats why we have weekends and holidays, I don't like western european religion but damn they did good for us on some things.

woot

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 05:35:26 GMT

So in the epic quest to clean my room I concured the clothes! Let me summarize about this thing... there are two big messes in my room the books and papers around my bed and the clothes on the couch and i'm proud to say have the battle is fought! And when Dani comes over on Saturday it will be completely clean.

Damn it

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 21:47:02 GMT

God I was so pissed at my mom yesterday because she is just ruling my life, she tells me to clean my room and when I try to through things out she tells me to keep them! I have a broken stereo in my closet, its been in there for about a year. So I go downstairs to ask my parents how to depose of this peice of CR*P. And when i mean depose of i mean trash, bio hazard (u know batteries), or recycle. I just wanted to know the most enviromentally friendly way to take care of it. but as soon as they found out that the radio was working they said for me to keep it. like good damn people. so I'm taking Dani's advice and just making sure everything is out. I complained to her for an hour last night and man i hate to unload my problems on her. i know that when i vent i really sound winey and that can be really taxing on people. I usually complain to tedra but she is in FREAKING MAUI!!! So i've convinced my mom that i'm getting rid of my junk so i'm going to march my old clothes and toys to the bissel center , and books to wee book inn. Dani told me that all the stuff i don't use i should junk. Thank you Dannums, you give my life stabillity.